08.05.2021 9:21 PM

I started first draft today because I wanted to write to something but I dont want it under my name for people to find and I want to keep the old medium as is. So I started first draft.

Raw honest straight emotions right out of my head into the system. No touch-ups or proofreads. I write to ease off my thoughts so that they don't bother me anymore. Kind of like a diary but probably a sad one.

Got my very first dose of vaccination today. I was panicking all the while. This happens every time. At any important thing, my anxiety starts acting up! I cant see clearly almost fainting, heavy breathing and just series of various thoughts scaring me.

I cant tell papa at that time because he would think I’m weak and would probably start screaming and scolding so I keep it to myself.

I’ve done it a lot of times to be honest. I have silently suffered for a long time and breathing on tips help, I guess….